From Girlhood to Womanhood (+25 facts about me — part 2) 🌊💕

Hello deer, this is Seri 🙋🏻‍♀️💕

Between 18 and now, so many pieces of me have changed : some gently, some with pain, and others in quiet, unnoticed ways. This is a collection of truths about who I’ve been, what I’ve lived, and how I carry it all today.

Facts about me from 18 to 25 🧳💕

🌱 I studied at an all-girls university in Kobe, and I actually enjoyed that experience. I chose to study social sciences, knowing deep down that I wanted to become a florist someday.

🌱My parents knew I loved flowers and still discouraged me from studying social sciences.

They didn’t really understand why I wanted to go that path, especially knowing I’d become a florist later. But I insisted and in the end, they accepted it, even if they had doubts.

🌱 After my bachelor, I started to study in Kyoto.

🌱 I spent six months in Switzerland in 2022, where I perfected my French. It was there that I grew closer to one of my best friends, Mizuki.

🌱 At 21, I had my first boyfriend ever.

🌱 In 2024, I moved to Germany for my master’s degree, where I met Haneul, who has become one of my closest friends. During that time, I also worked as a nanny a beautiful yet challenging experience that taught me a lot.

🌱 I still love figure skating, but in 2024, I started pole aerial dance and ballet, which opened new doors to movement and expression.

🌱 Anthropology fascinates me deeply, and I’m always eager to learn more.

🌱 I stopped following the major religions and became agnostic, yet I remain deeply connected to Animism, a quiet faith rooted in nature and spirit.

🌱 Self-therapy has helped me more than traditional therapy ever did.

🌱 At 25, I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis (MS), which has been a difficult journey.

🌱 I have lost many family members, including my mama. After her passing, I began to suffer from generational trauma, feeling its weight deeply.

🌱 I experience age regression as part of my healing process.

🌱 Pottery brings me peace and creative joy.

🌱 Before my mom passed, we loved to travel together. Our last trip was to Fukuoka.

🌱 I am very close to my papa and very dependant on him. Though I wasn’t close to my little brother for a long time, since his 18th birthday, we have grown very, very close.

🌱 I'm not really independent even though I travel a lot. I depend on people around me for almost everything.

🌱 I have an inner world called Lunaria, my sanctuary and refuge when the outside world feels too hard.

🌱 I hope to live to be 30 (max 35). Thirty-five feels like the longest I can imagine.

🌱 I’ve had difficult experiences with men, often because I unconsciously saw them as reflections of my dad.

🌱 I studied Islam to better understand different beliefs. And was so fascinated that I thought I'd convert.

🌱 I love Hunger Games, Tinkerbell, Attack on Titans & Ghibli movies.

🌱 I am an INFP — introspective and deeply feeling.

🌱 I’m less shy than I used to be but still very introverted.

🌱 I consider myself a positive nihilist, finding calm in the acceptance of life’s uncertainties.

🌱 Philosophy has shaped many of my views and remains a quiet guide.

🌱 I’m neither conservative nor liberal. My deepest passion lies in prehistory and indigenous cultures, which inspire awe in me.

🌱 I'm demisexual. I only feel romantic or sexual attraction when I’ve formed a deep emotional connection. It took me time to understand this about myself, but now it feels like a quiet truth I hold with peace.

🌱 I was naive until very late.

It wasn’t until I fell into dark, misogynistic chatrooms that I realized how much hatred exists toward women in this world. It changed me forever. I saw things I wish I never had, and it made me slip into misanthropy for a while. I carry the scars of that harsh awakening quietly.

🌱 I used to be neophobic.

I was scared of trying new food for most of my life and I still tend to eat the same things over and over, like a comforting rhythm. It makes me feel safe.

🌱 Talking about phobia, I have ligyrophobia (it’s the fear of sudden, loud noises like fireworks, thunder, balloons popping, or alarms. It's often connected to sensory sensitivity or past trauma.) I watch fireworks with headphones haha. I also have megalophobia. It’s not just large things, it’s when something that’s supposed to be small is huge. Like a giant fork, or an enormous doll. It makes me feel uneasy.

🌱 I still can’t sleep alone.

Even at my “big age,” I need someone close, a presence beside me to fall asleep peacefully.

🌱 I mostly eat seafood and poultry (but no duck).

I’m not a big meat eater, and I enjoy eating vegetarian meals from time to time.

🌱 My favorite thing about me is my hair.

It holds so much of femininity. The longest I have, the more I love.

Conclusion 😌

Looking back, it all feels like holding a handful of sea glass : once sharp, now softened by time. I’m still learning, still healing, still dreaming. And maybe that’s enough.

I never imagined I’d make it this far. And yet, I’m still here : a little bruised, a little braver, still full of love.

Thank you for reading a piece of my journey.